Y3 D282

My class went well yesterday. It was nice starting that early and having my day be done by noon without any guilt. When I sent a message to my boss letting him know how the training went he called immediately and said "if I do the math you must have started between 3 and 4!". Um yes? After talking for a few he realized we have an untapped market for this sort of thing. We get international requests for training on a regular basis but no one in the company wants to start the class at a time that works for the students. It doesn't matter to me. I told him I would start a class at 1am if need be. Then my day would be over before other people's even started. I don't have a problem with this. We may end up doing more of these as well as saturday classes. If I do a saturday class I can choose to take either monday or friday off in exchange. After napping for about an hour, I got up and didn't do much of anything the rest of the day. I sat here in the house and wasted time watching TV and playing video games. I didn't have anything else TO DO. I didn't feel like leaving the house, didn't feel like working on anything. They say one way to tell a truly depressed person is a lack of interest in doing things that once held joy. Yeah, that would be me. I didn't want to do anything. I probably have a dozen things on my checklist of things that NEED to get done and I wanted to do absolutely none of them. Hell I havent' even shaved in three days.Why bother? TGF had dance last night and called after but she had too much going on at home to talk long. The kid had homework todo yesterday and I made her start in on helping out more around the house. Her fucking room was a mess and it took her six plus hours to clean it. It shouldn't take six hours to clean a room. Just saying. Rent is paid for another month. I can at least rest easy about that. I am still in a funk but slowly starting to come out of it. I think. I hope. No show this weekend, by choice. I can rest easy for the next four weeks. On the 11th I travel. In between, I stress and worry and fret and mope and cry and hope and despair....

So many things are going through my head right now that I am feeling under water about everything. Tomorrow I want to just clean my house to clear my mind. Today I have to go out to a client in a couple of hours. Hopefully I will see TGF tonight and we can have sex. I know that sounds awful, but I need some release and some intimacy. Might help relax me a little bit.