I am stuck in a rut and I don't know why. Nothing is going forward, nothing is happening, nothing feels right. I feel very off. I feel like a storm is coming and I don't know when, where, or what to do about it. I am treading water and starting to go crazy because of it.
Do I move? Do I make a drastic change? I'm not alone in these feelings. The kid is feeling it too. Her and I went out to lunch yesterday and we both shared how we are feeling this way. We don't know if it's the people we are seeing, the weather, us, or what. She is feeling likes she needs something more from KBF - he just isn't communicative enough for her. He is too much of an awkward guy that when she needs him to be open he doesn't know how. But she also doesn't want to ruin the relationship because technically there's nothing wrong. I feel the same. For me it's a little different. TGF and I have been going out for 8 months almost and I feel like we are supposed to be doing something - move in together? Go out more? I don't know. But I do know is that the relationship really can't go anywhere for a long time and that is starting to eat at me.
I worked yesterday on some stuff. Nothing exciting. Mostly getting ready to go to DC this weekend. I will need to pack at some point. The weather outside is screaming. The winds are howling. One of those days on the horizon.
After working I didn't do much of anything. Finished one of the new books I bought two weeks ago. Played some video games. Picked the kid up at the train. Talked to TGF. Cleaned the rats, cleaned the fireplace. Going through the motions.
Today promises to be more of the same.
Shoot me.
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