Even though B and I spent the entire day together yesterday it wasn't there. "It" meaning the vibe. It was just off all day. Sorry, they broke something in me by coming home at 4 in the goddamn morning. They just don't get it. Selfish. It's the only word I have for it. Plain and simple, they are being selfish. I hope they have fun this week while I am gone because when I get back, I don't think it's going to be fun for them any more. This is the path you have chosen due to you're own selfishness, prepare to walk it. This week I am going to see if I can remove their name from some of the bank accounts. I don't have to worry about the house or the cars, just the bank stuff. Don't look at me like that. You knew this was coming the same way deep down I did too. I just can't play second fiddle to anyone any more. I have been balancing this much better than they have. There's only so much time I can give before reaching a breaking point. All day I just didn't want to be near them. I played nice, but I swear I said as little as possible while pretending it was all good. But they knew. They could tell I was the distant one this time. They just broke me.
And now, the price has to be paid.
Leave in 2.5 hours. Five days away from them. I plan to keep communication to the barest of minimums. Enough so they don't suspect anything, but nothing beyond that. I don't think I could do this if I wasn't going with someone else. If it was just me this would be a disaster. I should be distracted enough that I make it through this week.
Something tells me I am about to have the worst birthday ever.
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