I slept last night. For almost 6 hours. Why? Because B and I got home within five minutes of each other. I didn't have to sit here alone pondering, worrying, making shit up in my head. Nope. I was barely done taking the dog outside when they came in the door. I was having my OWN life. That's such a huge difference.
Yesterday during the day I taught. 8 people, moderately good group. My only issue with them is they have variable knowledge levels. Some people are bored off their ass, others are struggling to keep up. The gap in skill level is pretty large. I was having to adjust on the fly and go down rabbit holes. But we go through it and have day two today. We finished about an hour early yesterday but I don't expect the same today.
Speaking of rabbit holes, I made my next tattoo appointment. Doing two more pieces. A cat on a pumpkin on my arm and my Watership Down piece on my leg. I don't know if I ever showed you all the WD piece, but I am excited about it. It means something to me and only me which makes it special. The cat on a pumpkin is a total whim. These will be pieces 26 and 27. Only about 8 more to go. Yeah right.
After class I went to group. Good session this week. Some drama but nothing involving me thankfully. We have a clothing swap planned for Saturday, and a camping trip in August. In a house by a lake, don't think I'm sleeping outside bitches. I am inserting myself well into group. Just like with cast I am establishing a presence and will move into a position of power at some point. No, that's not a claim, it's a fact. You all know how I am. I can't help it. It's my energy level. After group we went to the bar and I was there until 11. Got home around 11:20 and B got home at 11:30. They had first gone to a friend's new house around 5 and then about 8 they asked if I minded if they went to CGF. I said I didn't mind IF they could come home a little earlier so we could spend some together. For once they respected the boundary. We had a nice fall asleep cuddle around midnight. I don't teach until 11 again today and didn't push myself to get up early. I figured fuck it, I will try to sleep.
I just need the reassurance and for them to show me I'm the priority. I do have a date next week on Wednesday. My friend who I went to Hell with recently and I are going out. We are going to see if we can be friends with benefits. We don't know if it will work, but we're going to try. We both have an attraction so let's see where it goes. Upside is they know my situation, I know theirs. They are experienced in this sort of lifestyle and know how to navigate it. For me, they are a CIS woman which is what I am attracted to and want to have as a partner. My other friend is enjoying having a car of their very own and was excited last night to be able to just drive home from work without any issues.
On a work note, I may have to go back onsite in October. Bentley no less. I don't know what I am going to do about that. Have to talk to my therapist on Friday.
I think that's everything? As usual these days it was a busy 24 hours. Ah, remember when I lived in uninteresting times?
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