What is my life? No seriously. It is now official that I have a wife and a girlfriend. Apparently that's okay? These crazy kids today. My GF is actually older than my spouse. Figure that one out. Whole story:
On the home front, B was having another rough day. They were having the suicidal thoughts again. Once more I had to lock up the meds. Once more I questioned if they should have gotten off the abilify. But I didn't say that. Instead I comforted and supported. I even offered to cancel my plans. I would have been pissed lowkey, but I would have. A lot of it is without CGF they have nothing to distract them for the overwhelming anxiety that they are a burden, that they are not contributing, etc. No amount of reassurance from me is changing that. They have a real therapy appointment today at 2pm. We will see how that goes. In order to make sure they weren't alone while I went out, a friend did come over and they took a nap to minimize alone time. In total they were alone for like 90 minutes but only awake for like 20 of those. During the day, they went out and helped the grandmother with some medical stuff. They also decided to come clean with grandma about everything. One less family member we have to worry about now. Then they hit the chiropractor.
I went out around 5:20 and met MCGF at 6. We had a great dinner. The first question of the night was 'our we dating'. With that agreed upon, we then spent the night discussing what that meant. Boundaries, frequency, locations, bedroom versus external activities, etc. Plus we had a makeout session in the parking lot. Now with my stupid schedule next week, I don't know when we will be able to get together next, but at least it's there in the universe.
Got back home and our friend was over. We got ready to go out and left for the club at 9:15. Got inside around 10, watched the shows, supported our friend performing, and got home around 12:15. It was by the time we got into bed, but I couldn't sleep because I honestly think I broke or at least sprained my toe. It's all swollen and I was in massive pain all night. Kept waking up because of the pain. I need to RICE it today to see if it's any better.
Tonight we are going to a local fair. It's open from 4-11. B wants funnel cake and a corn dog. I can do that. Something nice and easy to bring some joy. Not a problem. I think they may be making plans for tomorrow, but let's see what comes of it. I can't wait for my therapy tomorrow. This will be interesting to say the least.
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