Y2 D61

The universe wasn't done with me obviously. Just to add insult to injury it decided to fuck with me once more. It was bad enough that I have no idea how I am going to pay my bills in the next week while still being able to put food on the table for the kid. It's ok if I don't eat, it's not ok if she doesn't eat. And I am not joking right now. Between now and the sixth I have $700 in bills to go out. I have $400 in my checking account. I can't stop the bills as they are auto payments from American Express and Wells. I am going to TRY and call them today to see if I can push the date out to the sixth to hopefully allow me the opportunity to buy food before the kid goes home on the 8th. I have already resigned myself to the fact that I will not be eating in August. I have some old diet pills I can live on for the month of August. But that's not the worst of it. No, my life just keeps getting better...

I received a notice in the mail this weekend. It would appear that the DMV is suspending my license. Back in March when I was still driving back and forth between places every weekend, I received a speeding ticket. Because I moved shortly after getting the ticket, I never received the notice with the fine amount until after the "court date" had expired. I tried calling the court house three days in a row to find out how much I owed, but couldn't get through. It was one of those things that just ended up slipping from my mind. Now it has caught up with me. I need to try and call the courthouse today to see how much it's going to be to resolve this issue. I am probably going to have to ask my bosses for an advance on the amount. Nice. I will be further indebted to them.

I am also going to broach the subject of increasing my base pay. I can't keep going like this. I am constantly worried and stressed out about everything. I can't function. This weekend out of town was the first time in months where I was able to get a full night's sleep because I was able to push everything out of my mind for 24 hours. Last night, back at home? Nope. I barely got in a solid three hours.

In other news, my sister in law has essentially told me that I attacked her and her faith and her friends which I did no such thing, but because of that she doesn't want me in their life. Fine. Be that way. Seems a bit hypocritical to me though. Tolerance and acceptance, isn't that what your god preaches? Or is that only for those who agree with you?