How do you explain to someone who has never been in pain what it feels like? They have no point of reference and while they may try, they can never truly empathize with you. You have no words to describe the searing pain shooting through your body. They don't get it. Especially when there is no visible trauma. A broken limb, bruises, cuts, this people understand because there is a tangible they can see. When it's something like what I am experiencing right now, there is no comprehension.
Especially when you are a client paying $200 an hour for me to be there and all you care about is getting your project completed. Or a boss who is whoring you out at $200 an hour and wants to get paid. To them you are whining. How do I explain that the very act of being conscious right now is screaming agonizing pain? Moving my head makes me want to kill someone or at the very least scream.
That is how I spent yesterday. I managed to get into to see the doctor late last night. We have a wonderful extended hours clinic here that is quiet, efficient, and never crowded because unlike most urgent care places, they force you to have an appointment. It's for people like me who can't get to a doctor at normal times, but aren't seriously injured enough to use emergency. They are open from 1pm to 10pm during the week and 8:30 - 5:30 on weekends. Major points and kudos to the wonderful doctors and nurses there.
As expected the doctor really couldn't do much for me other than write a prescription. I was able to take the pills she gave me last night around nine. Knocked me out cold. If I had any pain while I slept, I sure as hell didn't care. I am still in a bit of pain this morning, but definitely much less than yesterday.
She didn't believe it to be shingles but she didn't rule it out. The direction and location of the pain is consistent, but there were no indications of the rash normally associated with it. Because of that, she wants me to watch it closely to see if the rash appears. In the interim she gave me an incredible muscle relaxer to kill pain. Yes. Yes it did. Otherwise, today I am to keep popping advil to minimize inflammation.
In other news, my brother is not responding well to being on IV based medication. I know this only because of a brief update he posted on his site. When and if he gets out of the hospital, him and I are going to have a long talk about our relationship. If he really wants to have a brother in his life, then he needs to treat me like one; not like a red-headed step child. I know this isn't about me, and I will wait until I know he is home safe and recuperated before I have any discussions with him. I am very frustrated at his and his wife's so called "Christian" behavior. I don't want to say any more on that right now because I need to organize my thoughts on what I am trying to convey.
Totally unrelated news -- I joined OkCupid the other day. I actually hit it off a little with someone on the site. We sent a few emails back and forth. Let's see if anything happens.
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