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My new year started off much better than I could have anticipated. In more ways than one. I did wake up with a bit of a sinus/heat headache yesterday (and today) but that's the only grey spot on an otherwise good day.

See, I learned something about myself yesterday. I learned that I'm okay. I'm actually better than okay, I am comfortable with who I am, where I am, and the path ahead of me. Nothing's perfect and I still have bad days, but in the grand scheme, I am alright finally. Big departure from how things were 3, 5, and especially 7 years ago. Why this epiphany of self understanding? Well...

Got up yesterday morning and headed to the grocery store around 6:30am. Our fridge was bare due to us being out of town which was fine and dandy. I got us a ton of food and only spent about $150. Not bad as we were gone for so long and there literally was nothing left to eat in the fridge. I felt like the narrator - a fridge full of condiments and no real food. But I remedied that in short order. Got back a little around 7:30 and B was awake and helped me put things away. She too is having a bit of trouble with time adjustment. This isn't one of those trips where we were gone for a couple of days. We spent 2+ weeks in EST. Things are off. We put the groceries away, threw a corned beef into the slow cooker for dinner, cleaned things up a bit, and sat down to play some video games. We opened up Lego Dimensions and started setting it up. As you build the base, there's a part where it wants you to follow along in game. Okay. We pop the game in and "update required - 6.86GB". Um. Wow. Okay.  I needed to go to the mall and get shampoo and decided that while that thing was doing its update I would go. B was already tired and decided to go back to bed. I headed out around 9:40am and that's when I got a text.

I woke up to a few texts from friends wishing me a happy new year. One of my friends (who spent new years eve in Vegas) also sent me a text saying he heard something about X2 and did I want to hear it. Ya know, yes. Because otherwise I would sit there thinking things up in my head. So what the fuck, why not. I got to the mall, got my shampoo and then we talked. (The shampoo btw is the coconut one from Lush which is AWESOME, lasts forever, and smells really good.) Before he told me, I said let me guess - she bought a new company, started a company, gave a TED talk, or got married in Vegas. I figured they ran into her on the strip somewhere. Well, I was sort of right. His wife was on Facebook and it popped up one of those people you know things and guess who popped up. Out of curiosity (and don't lie, we would all do the same thing), she clicked it. Her profile was wide open. Turns out she did in fact get married 2 weeks ago on the beach in Key West. Not surprised. It also looks like she got an instant family. A boy around 10 or 11.

And this is the part where I realized, I don't care. For real. It made me look at my life and go, so what? I am in a good place, I have been married over a year to a wonderful woman who truly loves me and I love back, I moved out of a bad space that was causing me trouble, I have a handle on my finances and a goal, and inside, I am happy. Babies don't sleep as well as me. I drove back home thinking about all of this and it is what it is. I looked out the window while I drove and marveled at where I live. Is everything perfect? Of course not. That would be stupid to say. I wish some things were different, but I am working on making them the way we want.

He later sent me a pic from her page and I kind of laughed inside. It was a pic of her, the husband, and the kid at Disney World. See, the person I knew had zero maternal instinct. God only knows how she will fare with a boy for the next 8-10 years. Good luck with that. She also was never the Disney fan that I am. I am sure she doesn't mind going once or twice, but more than that I can see her skin crawl. Who knows, maybe she too has changed and evolved. And there it is, I am really apathetic to the whole thing. I wish her and her husband the best of luck. That was then, this is now. I am where I am, doing what I do.

Got back home, finally played Dimensions. So far it's pretty cool. It's like the ultimate in Lego games. Before I played B was still asleep so I did my time sheet. I still have to do my expense report, but I will do that today. I also paid bills. Paid one card off entirely which was nice. My goal is five of them this year. Plus I am on Monday closing two accounts which I have paid off. That will give my score a little boost.

Around 2 B asked if we could hit the store as she needed new slippers and didn't get any for Christmas. Okie dokie. Headed out to the store, found us both slippers 60% off. Score. Came back, relaxed, read, etc. Had dinner around 6, watched some TV, and started laundry. Around 8, we were sitting there and one thing lead to another and off to the bedroom we went. What a nice way to start the new year. With a bang! (Get it? Huh? Huh! Yeah I'm an idiot, shoot me.)

After that we both kind of were mellow, we both scrolled the internet, and head to bed around 10:30. Welcome to 2016. Let it rock.