I felt like visiting B last night was a complete waste of time. Nothing bad happened. There was no arguments or fights, but there was also no excitement. It was flat. On both sides. I felt nothing seeing them. They were looking at a dating site at one point while I was sitting next to them. It wasn't bad, but it wasn't anything to be honest. There's no point in trying I feel. I will see how things go next week on my birthday. They know how important my birthday is to me. Let's see if I come home to a card, a present, etc. Let's see what kind of message I get on the actual day. Let's see if they plan a date on my birthday.
I was talking with a mutual friend last night who also agrees that B is so hyper fixated on the new, they're forgetting the old. They're expecting us all to be here and waiting patiently for them to figure all this out and they're not seeing the collateral damage being left in the wake.
I'm no longer angry. Just resigned and tired. I've tried to be supportive, I've tried to be a partner, but for what?
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