Well, tonight's the night. At roughly midnight tonight when my wife comes home smelling like sex, I will see if I am mature enough to handle this relationship or if they will find me dead on the floor or not home at all. Those are the three outcomes of this situation. Tonight at 8pm, they will head over to CGF's, have sex with a woman for the first time, and in theory come home to me. WTF is my life. I did in fact make plans of my own to make sure I am out of the house. I am leaving before them, will probably be home before them, but trying to minimize the amount of that time. If I get home at 11:45pm, it will be enough hopefully that I will only stress for 30 minutes. I HAVE to see that my world isn't going to end for this to work. I have to. They are still going camping this weekend which means I will have roughly 3 days alone to ponder the meaning of life or kill myself. It's a crap shoot right now.
In more boring things, I taught all day yesterday. Evals at end of class were 9.3 for me, 9.1 for the class. Acceptable. After teaching we went to dinner with a friend. That was enjoyable. It's a friend of B's who they recently reconnected with thanks to them getting divorced. Their spouse had made them give up all of their friends out of jealousy. That's who I never want to be. They're coming out of 8 years of being constantly told they were cheating, lying, etc. That's worse than the shit I am dealing with to be honest. That's X1 level gaslighting and manipulation. Unacceptable.
After dinner, we hung out for a while, friend left at 8, B and I talked for a while, I played some video games, got in bed by 10. Unfortunately I woke up at 11:30, 1:00, and 2. The longest block I got was 2-5. Good fucking times.
I have a goddamn meeting in an hour with some fucker in Singapore. Fuck.
Alright. Let's see how the next 24 hours go. I will miss you all if I can't handle it. You've all been good to me.
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