A breakthrough was had yesterday. Around noon yesterday B messaged me. I don't recall the original context of the message without looking it up, but it did turn into an actual conversation. The acknowledged that a lot has happened in the last few weeks, that these camping trips could have happened not back to back, that this one could have been shorter, and most importantly, that they haven't been balancing things as well as they could be. It didn't "fix" everything, but it was a step in the direction I needed to hear. That they are aware that I am not happy and there are things they could be doing to make that better. Plus they reminded me they have been off their meds for four days. Not something I agree with to be honest, but okay. We shall see how this weekend and next week go. Especially Friday since I am going out. How do they handle it? Let's see.
As for me, I had a hair appointment in the morning to rebond and fix some itching I was having. Worked on some docs, played video games, and went to group. Group was fun. I am definitely becoming part of the cool kid club. I like that. I need it. Stayed out until about 10:30 and was home and in bed by 11:15.
Teach this morning, then nothing. Going to make liver tonight. Let's see how that turns out. I also want to clean out the fridge. Few more days and B is home, then I leave for NC. I need to pack on Saturday.
EDIT:
Something just happened that I can't wait until tomorrow to discuss. I just broke up with my couple and cancelled my plans. I realized that they aren't what I am looking for and don't want to pretend. I am not into their whole pre-game vibe. I want to have sex, not party. I get that's how they have foreplay, but it's not for me. So yeah. Back to nothing I guess, but that's okay.
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