Y2 D6

What a day. I have always posted the morning after in order to have time to let a day play all the way out because until I reach a certain point, anything can still happen. Yesterday proved that. It also proved something else - that X2 is nothing but a fading fucking memory and no longer a reminder of who I used to be. More on that in a minute...

Started the day off by getting ready to hit the guitar store as planned. I sent A5 an email chastising her for calling and not leaving messages. No response as of yet. Whatever.

As I was brushing my teeth, N1 called. We talked for a while and she told me she was going to the movies with a co-worker later that night. We talked for a while and agreed we would miss each other. We said goodbye and I expected that to be the end of it. About a half hour later she texted to let me know her co-worker cancelled. I decided to take a chance and called her and said, fine let's go to dinner and a movie since I will be gone for two weeks. She agreed and I told her to pick the movie and the time. 8pm. Ok, then meet me at 6 for dinner. Done and done.

After getting off the phone with her, I went to the guitar store. Picked up a new guitar, amp, and cables for $250. Not a half bad sale. Oh, I also got two stands as I needed one for one of my other guitars. I now have four in the house. Came home and plugged that sucker in -- I am sure my neighbors hate me. :) I got a Line 6 Spider with all these built in effects and settings. Was hitting the power chords HARD for a good half hour. Putzed around for a while. Got a message from the Original N on FB asking me about something. I sent her off a reply. Seems she is still not doing well. I feel for her. I can empathize with her, but she also needs to learn how to move forward. I wish I could help her, but I know I can only do so much.

Talked to the Kid about summer and getting ready for me to pick her up soon. We also talked about her getting her passport taken care of sooner rather than later in order to make sure that it would be here in time for us to go anywhere. She started looking things up and is going to go get it handled in the next two weeks.

Showered and then headed off to meet N1.

Got there early so I could hit the bookstore and grab a paperback for my trip. While I was doing that, I talked to X1's husband. I need him to help out the kid with her passport this week. We talked about X1 and I learned some new stuff. Turns out she is worse than I thought. I will leave that for another day.

Met N1 and we went to a favorite Korean place of mine that I hadn't been to since X2 and I last went there years ago. At first I was worried I was going to tweak but nope. Nothing. It was a new experience with a new person and a NEW memory. I felt great. We had an incredible dinner where she fed me lychee sorbet. Did I mention how smoking hot she was looking? Sexy dress, sexy shoes, sexy ass... I know, TMI but what the hell... While we were at dinner, I thanked her for agreeing to see me again so soon after. I acknowledged that it's not proper dating etiquette once again to be seeing each other so soon after a date BUT that this had bitten me in the ass before. She asked what I meant and I explained to her what happened with A1. How I had just started seeing someone, really hit it off, and then boom, on the road for two weeks. She said that sounds ok. Yes but I explained further, we both knew we weren't dating monogamously and while I was gone she met some other dude and got to spend a good deal of time with him. By the time I came back from my trip they were deeper than I could have hoped to ever have been. She then understood what I was saying. Regardless, I think I left a strong enough impression on her that I don't have to worry about another A1 situation.

We had some time to kill before the movie and we went back to the bookstore. I asked her to show me the area she would spend the most time in and vice versa. For her it was through different part of the bookstore. Varied interests this once has... While going through the geek section for me, I noticed a book I have been wanting to read. I grabbed it and as we headed to the counter, she took it from my hands and told me she was buying it so I would think about HER while I was gone. Nice move. Very cool. :)

We went and saw Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. GREAT movie. Long, but great. We spent the whole movie in each other's arms, just touching and occasionally sneaking glances at each other. Felt like two teenagers being naughty. We were both getting pissed off that the armrests didn't lift and we kept trying to get closer but ended up with an armrest for our troubles. But it was fun and made us both laugh. We parted ways after a long time of just staring at each other and kissing. I wasn't home more than 10 minutes when I got a fantastic email from her telling me how much she is going to miss me and thanking me for a wonderful weekend. I replied in kind.

Now back to that opening remark -- while I was waiting for my buddy to come over last night at 11:30 to get the keys from me, he is watching the cat while I am gone, I was on FB. X2's sister posted pics from her graduation yesterday. Yep. There is X2. In all her glory. And you know what? Nothing. Nada. Nill. Zip. Zilch. Zero. Didn't even phase me. Didn't dwell, didn't feel anything. THAT was fantastic. Of course, it was also due probably to a great date, but I think it also due to me just not giving a shit any more. She didn't look attractive to me at all. Funny enough, in one of the pics she is wearing something I KNOW she has had for years and that was my thought -- really she still wears that?? Ugh. Other than that? Who cares. She is a fading fucking memory. Nothing more. Ok, that's all a lie. But I will say I didn't feel anything STRONG. There was no oh woe is me. Oh look how good she looks - that part is true. I really didn't care about her in that sense. I said FADING memory, not a memory. They say it takes 1/2 the time you were together to get over someone. I guess I have 5 years to go?

Off to Phoenix. Long two weeks ahead of me...