Y2 D26

Yesterday was Father's Day and I think it's the best one I have had in years. The Kid let me sleep until 10am which unto itself is amazing. We didn't go to bed until 2, but still for me to get 8 hours of sleep is unheard of these days. I don't think I slept straight, but I slept a good chunk of it.

She greeted me with two cards. The first one has a picture of a fat guy holding a giant fish and inside it says "I wanted to get you an appropriately sentimental card for Father's Day, but I just kept coming back to this one with the fat guy holding a fish." Nice. But it was the second one that really touched me. It says on the outside:

"There was a dad who had a daughter. Swung her, chased her, caught her, hugged her, loved her, praised her, taught her. Oh what happiness he brought her."

And on the inside:

"Happy Dad's Day from that daughter"

Made me cry.

Despite all my fucking up and self-centered, selfish, ugliness, she showed me that I am not a horrible person where it counts. That no matter what, there is one shining star in my life that I have not destroyed. I love my Kid more than anything else. Without her, I would have ended it a long time ago. But to know that at the very least, I have done right by her, keeps me going. It makes everything else feel so small and insignificant. She is the proudest and greatest thing in my life. And yesterday she showed me that I can do ok. That I am not completely useless. I thank her for that.

I made her waffles and bacon for breakfast as a thank you for the cards.

We went to the movies and I made her sit through Jonah Hex as payback for the bad movies she made me watch. It wasn't awful, just not great. Too much shoved into 90 minutes. Hard to follow and really feel anything for the characters. But not a "bad" movie.

We then did a full afternoon tea service. Sandwiches, cakes, the whole nine yards. Loved it.

We then came home, relaxed, and I went to bed early. All in all, a perfect father's day. Thank you daughter for that. I needed it.