Y2 D30

Been a month since I started this new blog. Amazing how time flies when you are going insane.

Spent the day in the city with the kid yesterday. We just bummed around. Didn't really do anything in particular. The weather was shit and we both froze our asses off, but it was still a fun time for all. I found a new hat. Yeah, because I need another one like I need a hole in the head. But it kept my head warm and I stopped freezing.

I also felt light hearted because of my decision to break up with N1. I felt relieved that I didn't have to worry about calling or checking in with anyone. I know that is a selfish feeling, but it was the right feeling for where I am right now.

Re-enabled my Match and eHarmony profiles yesterday too because of everything. Let's see if I get anything off of that. I also adjusted my "wants" on both sites. Lowered the age limit, changed some of the other criteria. Now that I have seen all sides, I know what it is I am looking for in a woman. I do promise I won't whine about being alone this time as it was my choice to do this.

We spent the whole day doing nothing. Took the train there and back. Didn't get home until almost 10pm. Tried to sleep, but found myself once again in a texting match with the other one. That went on until 2:30 again. She's killing me in the sense that I am staying up later and later just to have the thrill of talking with her. Maybe it's time I got a night job so I don't have to worry about being up in the daytime.

Speaking of jobs, my paycheck posted last night. I am worried now that I am a hybrid employee that my regular paycheck won't cover my monthly bills. I agreed to a certain number because I thought it would be enough to cover my monthly outgoing. I still need to see how things play out, but right now I am not sure it's going to be enough. I need just a few hundred more a month to be on the safe side and be able to handle the gap between paycheck and bonus check. If we had did a MONTHLY like I wanted instead of a quarterly, then I would be fine. I am going to play it out for one more pay period before I say anything.

These are the days I miss having a two income household, that's for sure. There is truth to two can live cheaper than one.

New ink today. 3pm. Pictures tomorrow.