Three hours of new ink yesterday. Everyone thinks I am crazy. I did it because I had to do it. No regrets, no complaints. Other than pain. I am happy. It is important to me. Don't you get that? I can't keep living a lie. I have to be reminded every day to be truthful to myself. The hell with the rest of the world. I have to be honest to me. I did it for me. I don't care what you think or say. It's not for you.
That was pretty much how I spent my day. Getting scarred once more.
Not much else went on yesterday to be honest with you. We texted through the whole process. She was dubious about how it was going to turn out. But when it was done, even she liked it. I guess at this point I should give her a real name in here instead of just being "her". How about LO? Some of you might know what that means already. I have been casually referring to her as that already. If you don't, tough. It's now LO. I can't believe we are still in communication. I expected it to have faded already. For the shine to wear off, but yet here we are. Three weeks out and there is still something. Don't know what that something is, but we haven't ended anything yet. Hell, I still have the thank you & goodbye email sitting in my drafts folder that I wrote almost 2 weeks ago. But I haven't had to send it. Odd.
Watched a couple of movies yesterday. How To Train Your Dragon and Runaways. The first, outstanding. A great movie with a real story. I now know why everyone said you must see this movie. The other? Meh. It was less the story of the Runaways and more the breakdown of Cherie Curie and the lesbian antics of Joan Jett. I think Lita Ford had three lines the whole movie. Sandy West had even less. It was less of a documentary like I was expecting and more of a soft porn Skinemax Friday night. Sad.
Went to bed relatively early. Was in bed around 1. Had trouble sleeping obviously because of the new work, but not too much. I am getting close to being caught up on sleep. Which of course just means I will be ready to go another two weeks without any.
Today is once again house cleaning day. Time to organize, pay bills, pay rent, clean. Staying home today. Need to be cool for the next couple of days to see how all my bills play out. Still not 100% sure on how things are going to go with that.
My birthday is in 10 days. For the first time I am NOT excited. Sad.
And here, complete with blood:
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