I have just calculated and realized that at the end of this weekend I will have had more physical intimacy in the last two weeks than I have had in the last six months. I have been physically attracted to someone more in the last two months we've been going out than I have been in the last three years. Read into that what you will. It's also struck me on more than one occasion this weekend that C is a clone of X2. Same hair color. Same cheek structure. Same height. Am I looking for the closure I never got? Am I trying to recapture the life I have so desperately wanted back for the last 10 years? Or is it that I simply have a type and B has strayed so far from that type that I didn't realize that I knew what I wanted from the beginning? These questions and many more will be answered on the next episode of Soap.
We had a great day yesterday. We did a photo shoot on the beach together. We were freezing and laughing and having a great time. It's nice being with someone who is also a photographer. C would walk away to shoot a rock because something caught her eye. We then went to the antique pavilion where I found a neon tiki sign I absolutely had to have. I was like you're coming home with me. After we went to the root beer barrel for hot dogs and floats. Just a wonderful day. From there we went back to the hotel for afternoon sex and a good nap. A much needed nap.
Woke up, got ready, went downtown. We struggled a bit to find a place to eat because most places don't take reservations and for some reason this was a busy weekend. We ended up at a mexican place and didn't eat until almost 9pm. Got back to the hotel late, watched some tv on my laptop. I feel asleep on her chest. It was incredible. I haven't felt this safe and secure in quite a while. It's a nice feeling to feel connected to someone again. Let's make sure it lasts a while.
Today we're packing up and heading out. Trying to be home by 5. B still has two more days with their paramour. I will see them Tuesday I think.
I don't know if I can go four weeks. It's going to be hell.
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