Hold on people, I am being dragged back to bed by my thirsty woman. Now she's yelling at me to correct history and tell you all that's not true. Yes, she knows I write I this every day. She respects that. She says I am awesome. I don't know about that, but I know I am happy. That's all that matters. Let's talk about the fact that we have been up for an hour already together. Let's talk about how incredible I felt with her at dinner last night. Or walking down the street of a downtown holding hands. Or how we ran around playing Pokemon yesterday. I still stand by my earlier posts; if this ended tomorrow it will have been an important part in my journey. It will have shown me that I am worthy of real love. I am worthy of being loved. I am wanted. I am needed. I am of value. This is what she gives me. She lets me be me. Want to know what our foreplay is like? It's talking about being boring at home. These trips are nice but we want to be in the same house doing stupid shit like taking the dog for a walk. Sitting on the couch watching a show. Deciding what to do for dinner. Together.
Oh and the sex. Goddamn the sex is good. So good that last night she collapsed and immediately fell asleep for 40 minutes. Like heart pumping, pass out good. This body, this soul, has needed that kind of intimacy. Never take it away from me again, okay? Let me die before this ends.
We got up early yesterday, had breakfast downstairs. Scared some CIS white people. Dear god! Hide the children Bill, there's lesbians! Wait! Oh no, they're trans lesbians! RUN! Fucking boring people. Fuck them. After we went to Walmart for a few things, then we went back to the hotel, wait before that we sat in the parking lot and listened to Lana Del Ray and cried. Yeah, so sue us for being cheesy. We hung out at the hotel for a while then we went off to a candy store downtown. She bought me a variety of candy for Sweetest day. We walked around, talked, held hands. Her purse broke and we decided to go find a new one. First we had an incredible sushi lunch where she took what may be the best picture of me ever. I can see the joy in my eyes. I can see the relaxation in my pose. I can see the lack of fear and self consciousness. We then headed to Target but unfortunately didn't find anything. We then headed back downtown for Pokemon community day. She made me walk. Ugh. But it was good. I am probably going to catch a cold as a result, but it will be worth every sniffle. At least I don't have COVID bitches.
Came back to the hotel, got ready for dinner. Headed back downtown. Note I am using "downtown" very loosely. It's all of a 7 minute drive from our hotel and not an issue finding parking or anything. Dinner was good. Not great, but good. Some misses in our meal but I had a veal porterhouse that was good. She had a bison bolognese with pappardelle. Sides were eh, appetizers just okay. We brought dessert back to the hotel and had it after sex. Oh the sex. Neither of us is walking straight any time soon. Nope. Not happening. I really do need a week off from this.
Heading home today at some point. Back to my germ filled hovel. Sigh. I teach all week next week. Just had more days added in October. I don't think I get a break between now and the end of the month. At least I am getting paid to do my real job. Okay, shower time.
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