ANA Y1 D139

Somehow I have turned into the resident therapist for my group. Me. The one with the most mental problems of them all. Go figure. 

I am tired this morning. We watched two movies last night because apparently we needed two Willam Dafoe movies. We watched the Lighthouse which had such a Lynch vibe I am making her watch Eraserhead next. Then we watched Boondock Saints. I haven't watched that in so long. Some of it doesn't hold up today, but damn if it isn't still a great movie. My girlfriend was a baby when it came out. Let's not over analyze that this morning, shall we kids? Stayed up until about midnight as a result, but I wouldn't trade any amount of sleep for how much fun I had. C keeps telling me I am fun. You know what? I am. Somewhere along the way I lost that. I lost so much. I need it back. 

Taught for about 5 hours yesterday. We've been doing more of these half day classes which isn't bad. It gives me a break from everything. I can get shit done but still have billable hours. Works for me. One of my students decided to spend the day making responses in the form of Tool song titles and lyrics so that was fun. Of course I talked to C before, after, and during. She is making me homemade peanut butter eggs for the weekend and took me with her to the store. Yes, I am turning into B. Sue me.

Speaking of B, they are feeling sick and spent most of the day in bed. Around 11 their friend the smurf came over. Seems they are butt hurt because of B's time with A. Yeah, no more CGF. Let's give the poor girl a name. It's A. Just go with it. Anyway, smurf still thought she had a shot with B. But seeing B spend the five days with A just solidified that nope, you don't. Sorry smurf. She stayed for like 20 minutes it felt. Normally she would have stayed for hours. I don't know if it was because B was sick or what, but she was here and gone it felt. I was too busy watching my boys kill russian mobsters. I feel as if in some ways as I move forward putting all the pieces together, B's world is unraveling in places. Not that they're doing bad with their relationship, but that they have let the others slip. I am working extra hard to make sure that doesn't happen. Have to prioritize these things. Of course it will be easier when we both have our respective people here and not miles away, but that just means you have to work a little harder, that's all. I keep four to five conversations going per day. Make sure others know I am still available for them. It can be tiring, but I know it will pay off in the end. I have a support group, I have a good partner. If the latter ends, I will still have the former because I am giving them my time. I felt if B's relationship with A ended tomorrow, they have burned a lot of bridges and it would cost them.

Last thing for today - another day tinnitus free. Just saying.