I am so desperate for the connection of C that I care not about anything society tells me I should or shouldn't do in this relationship. But I am not settling. I am not giving up a part of myself in anyway shape or form for them. Literally just the opposite. I am for once living, breathing, expressing my true authentic self so much it hurts. I am free to love, give love, be loved. But more than that. Three times people. In a 10 hour period. Three fucking times.
Okay now for the details. Had my hair done in the morning. Came back, did some final packing, hit the road at noon as planned. Met them a little after 3pm. The hotel is hosting some bro dude event and there is testosterone and teenage boys axe smelling grossness swarming all over. It's gross. I don't even know how to explain it. Horrible. Why matter? Because when I tried to check in our room got screwed up and I went from a junior suite to king with balcony. I did have them adjust the price because fuck you. Then the AC unit is out of whack. The room I am not happy with but luckily everything else is gold.
We were barely in the room for 30 minutes before clothes were gone. Like just tow teenagers going crazy while parents are of out of town. Oh well. two hours for round one. Then we got some awesome sushi. Holland by the way is the cutest fucking town. Without planning we happen to be here during fall fest weekend. Pumpkin carving, street events, activities. It was perfect. We walked up and down the streets feeling the laughter and love all around. I know it has a lot to do with my mental state but I was swept up in the euphoria and moment. Wouldn't have changed a thing.
Back to the room. More sex. Got up, went to the store for ice cream. Got into bed around 11:30 and near midnight we tried again for round 3. Didn't quite work out but we tried be assured we tried. Some time later we both fell asleep happy and content.
Babies don't sleep this well.
Today we are off to saugutak for fun. I can't fucking wait.
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