The weekend is finally here!! I finally get to see C in person! I get to spend the night with her! Holy fuck I am excited. Talked to my therapist about this yesterday. We discussed how important this time around I make sure that besides feeling emotionally and mentally attracted to someone that I factor in the physical connection or I will find myself right back where I started. Well kids, I am massively physically excited to be spending the weekend with C right now. Like flipping out at the prospect. This is insane. I feel like a giddy teenager. Last night me and C were talking and it's only been two weeks since we started really getting hot and heavy, but we have talked for 6-8 hours a day in some shape or form so it's like we've been on 20+ dates already. It's been about a month and a half since we first met. 8/25 is the day they reached out to me to say hi. We've known each other through mutual stuff longer, but that's our date.
Yesterday I went to therapy, had good discussions about everything happening here. I've noticed the shift in therapy. Less talking about B and more talking about me. The way it should be. Right now I am a little pissed at B. They promised they would give me a pedicure last night but instead one of theirs came over and the two of them sat downstairs until 1am watching TV. Whatever. Don't need them anyway. I really don't. I need me. This is something we also discussed in therapy. That even without C, I'm going to be just fine. Because if there is one person who likes me, there are more. There will always be more.
Had my lashes touched up for this weekend. I look good. Came back, did some work, did some work around the house. I got all of the books out of the basement. It's my upstairs, there downstairs now. I only need to really go down there to use the laundry or the freezer. Now to just get through the next 3 or 4 months and it will be my house. All mine. What a weird concept. Talked with C and played video games together, went to bed at 10. Slept like shit from excitement though.
Bills are paid, things are done, time to live and thrive. No more live and survive.
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