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I talked with B more than I expected to yesterday. We shared a lot. Like how CGF got off the plane and pulled out a sign saying "Will you be my girlfriend?". Aw. Sweet. No really, it is. I would do something just as cheesy. They told me about their time and I saw how happy it made them. They went to a cider mill and axe throwing. They went out for Italian. They went to IKEA to look at couches together and have meatballs. We talked about how we're both on a good path. Because I gushed about C and falling asleep on her. I talked about walking around Saugatuck. About shooting on the beach. It was clear we're both thriving. It's all I have ever wanted for both of us. I was complaining how I wasn't going to see C this weekend and B was like why not? I said I didn't want to drive again. Their response? "If cgf was still in this state, I sure as hell wouldn't go five weeks without seeing her. Stop being an idiot and drive." You know what? You're right. So guess what I am doing this weekend? Yep. Driving two hours and spending the weekend with C. Leaving Friday around 2 and badda bing badda boom. Another weekend with my woman.

I spent the day actually doing work stuff. I finished the presentation for a webinar in two weeks. Still have to prep the demos, but otherwise, I am good. I spent two plus hours on calls with clients answering questions and helping them out. I caught up on organizing emails. It was good. I went to italian before group, had a good time in group, and left a few minutes early. Not because of C, but because the people that were there last night I didn't feel like hanging out with afterwards to be truthful. I had a phone call with a dear dear friend from the before times. They are someone I have known from over 12 years. I worked with them back when I was not me and they are one of the first people I ever truly opened up to about who I was. I am grateful to still have them in my life. It was the first time we had talked on the phone in years. We chat online, social media, etc, but this was really nice to hear their voice. Made me realize that there was always one person who had my back in those days. I am forever happy to still know them. I then spent an hour or so on the phone with C going through their portfolio. Good shit man. I am in the presence of someone who takes great photographs like me. Who knows, future gallery showing of all of our work? Maybe. Just maybe.

I'm happy people. My ears aren't screaming. I don't want to listen to horrible music. I want to live and thrive and rejoin the world. This is love.